Good Things Are Coming

I am 47 years old, and I have never been as lonely and stressed as I am right now.  I wake up every morning (when I can actually sleep) hoping that I have been in a terrible dream.  You can not imagine how disheartening it is to figure out that I have in fact not been dreaming, and my worst nightmares are true.

I have done my best trying to handle this awful situation with Lori with dignity and poise.  I have put on a brave face and front for all of my friends, my family, and most importantly my children.  It is difficult beyond words, for my anguish is stifling.

I am really at my wit's end.  I am being forced to get a divorce I do not want.  I am actively and aggressively seeking a good paying job that will allow me to live close to my children, but I'm having no success so far. 

With a trial date looming one week from today, the stress of losing the love of my life, my children, my home, and all I have ever wanted or worked for is almost unbearable.   Suffocating.

What am I going to do?  I simply don't know.  I have always been a fighter, but this opponent, this situation, currently has my number.   

I am trying to stay positive.  I have always believed, and I have always been told that "good things happen to good people".  I still cling to that belief like it's a life preserver.   I have to.

I am as good a person as you will ever meet.  That might come across as arrogant to some, especially ones who have never met me, but the ones that know me will tell you it's true.  I  know that I have built up enough good Karma to last a lifetime, and it will pay dividends.    

With Lori stating that she has "moved on", I am now very ready to start my new life.  It will be very different, but I am now actually looking forward to it.  I have so much to offer, and it will be exciting seeing what new wants, dreams and desires come to fruition . Believe me when I tell you.....I have plenty.  It might take me a little while to get the wheels turning again, but I can guarantee that once I start rolling, I will be both happy and successful.  There is no doubt. 

I will live my life well, and "good things" are coming.   I can feel it.

William