Sure I have the opportunity to work on making my business profitable during this down time, and I have lots of time to clean and do all the chores around the house, but nothing beats the stomping and laughing and screaming of inquisitive kids.
I know, I know, "how could you miss the screaming and fighting" is what you ask? Well, as odd as it sounds, you really do. The interaction, whether positive or a teaching moment, is equally missed when you are separated.
Will it ever be different? Will that longing ever go away? In my case, I really doubt it. Christopher and Aidan are just too entwined in my being to ever get comfortable with their absence. Does a person that loses a hand or a foot ever really get over it not being there? Certainly they adapt, they overcome, but they never totally lose the sensation of their lost extremity. When the kids are gone, it's the same type of feeling. You feel their presence even though you know they're not with you. Odd I know, but for me.......eternal.
"Fools", said I, "You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you"
But my words, like silent raindrops fell
And echoed
In the wells of silence.
William
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