Quiet Is Hard

Well, just like I figured, this single life is not for me.  Like I stated in the past, I'm a family man.  I enjoy having and being part of a family.  Seeing the kids only half the time really stinks.  Sure, we make the best of it when we do get to see each other, but come on, who in their right mind wants half of what makes them happiest in the world.  Not me, that's for sure. 

I of course miss Lori too.  I miss the companionship.  I miss the conversations.  I miss doing nice things for her.   Sure, the last six months have been challenging, and I've had to deal with many issues and feelings that I would not wish on my worst enemies, but I still felt part of something meaningful and enjoyed the giving.  Oh well.....

The new house is nice, and I have been working very hard to make it a home.  It's amazing how much stuff you accumulate during 17 years while living with someone else.  It's taken me forever to move and get things put where they belong.  I've got a mountain of boxes stacked on the side of the house in the back yard waiting for bulky trash day.  The trash man's going to hate me.

I have not lived alone in over 17 years.  Haven't wanted too.  Wow it's different.  Quiet is hard.  I've just spent my time trying to get the house ready, and it's kept me busy.  Now that thing are coming around, and winding down, I'm a bit scared of the upcoming down time.  It's going to be pretty lonely when the kids aren't here.

The attorneys are still working out the final details of this awful divorce.  Soon Lori and I will no longer be married.  It still seems impossible to me, but it's true.  We will both be fine, and we will move on to new chapters in our lives.  If the next chapters are half as much fun as the ones that passed with Lori, I'll be content.

As soon as I have everything in the house complete, I'll post a bunch of pictures of my new home.  I'm really proud of how it looks, and the boys love it.  There is a huge yard for the boys to play in.  Of course, it's been about 105 degrees recently, so we have not been spending too much time back there.  We will, but it's got to cool down a bit first.

This is my weekend with the monkeys.  I can't wait to pick them up from camp this afternoon.  We are going to have a great time.  I'll fire up the grill, we'll play some video games, we'll play some baseball, and do some swimming.  I'll have to get double the hugs to make up for the time they're not here. 

They are both growing up so fast.  It seems like their childhood is flying by at breakneck speed.   Now it will seem twice as fast, since I only see them half the time. That's a sad thought. 

I should have pictures ready to post by Tuesday of next week.  I can't wait to show the house off, and I should have some of the monkeys too.

God Bless

William